I've never been the best sleeper but the last year has made sleep even more difficult to come by. I go through periods of insomnia that last a week or more and the frequency of those periods vary. This week is one of those weeks, though.
I lay down at night exhausted but once everything is quiet, my mind starts racing. I just can't get my mind to go blank....or at least focus on pleasant enough things to make me sleepy. I have so much on my mind...so many things I'm trying to figure out in my life and so much of my life up in the air. It's hard not to incessantly worry. Anyway, I end up reading or playing solitaire or flipping channels....and wondering if I'm the only one struggling with sleep. I gotta believe there's a whole contingency of other insomniacs doing the same thing as me.
My cats aren't at all sympathetic either. They don't like my insomnia. They get fed up with the lack of quiet and/or darkness and go find somewhere else to sleep. I find myself calling them traitors as they flick their tails on the way out of the room....
I've tried all of kinds of sleep remedies. They rarely work. Apparently they're no match for my neurotic mind.
I think I got 4 hours last night. In fact, I think I've averaged 4 hours of sleep a night all week. I miss sleeping normally.
Maybe tonight?
Insomnia. Ugh.
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