Resolutions

1.  Archery - I gave archery a try over the summer and really enjoyed it.  I'd like to take it up as a hobby (or a sport?) and I know that there's an archery range where I'm moving.  This year seems like a good time to give it a go.

2. Fencing.  I've long wanted to try fencing.  Sword fighting just looks fun and really kind of kick ass.  The historian in me loves the idea of it.  I'm going to try to fit it in this year.

3.  I'd like to fit it a foreign language but this may be far too ambitious.  I wouldn't mind perfecting my French or learning Italian or German or even Gaelic.  I just don't know that this is a legitimate goal for this list. We'll see.

 4.  Some fun road trips with friends.  I love travel and I love road trips.  It's been far too long since I've done either.  This year seems like the year to change that. 

5.  To worry less.  I have no idea how to accomplish this.  I'm a natural worrier and I don't have faith easily.

6. To come to acceptance or make peace with the fact that I'm single and will likely remain so.  I don't enjoy being single, but...on a good day, I'm complicated.  And I have a hell of lot of emotional baggage. I think there are plenty of good things about me but combining my complications and emotional baggage with my very strong, opinionated personality...well, it would take a very brave man with the patience of a saint to take me on. I would have to get brave, too....or at least be inspired enough to try to be brave. I would have to be given reason to have faith in someone again and that's asking a lot of another person.  It seems unfair to expect someone to prove themselves and yet that's what it would take.  I wish I could be one of those non-introspective people who jump willy-nilly from one relationship to the next without a second thought, though.  Lots of people do it every day.  The minute they get single, they start looking for the next relationship, rebounding over and over again. I can't seem to do that.  Anyway, coming to acceptance is a goal. 

7.  And finally, find a way to like the idea of turning 40.  Turning 40 is incredibly scary.  I really had no idea how freaked out I would be by a number.  I've had people over the years tell me that their 40's were a really great period in their life.  That they felt stronger, more confident and more comfortable in their own skin.  I'm really hoping these things are true.  So, maybe this year, I can find a reason to like turning 40. 

These are my resolutions....I think.